I just wrote this post, but firefox crashed, and for some reason blog.com hadn’t done an auto-save after I wrote the title… GRRR!!

Basically, I’m low on motivation. But I’m down 0.5kg, which is great.

I’ll get back to it soon and I’m thinking I’ll gym it later today, after I go baby visiting.

Ciao kids!

I’ve barely been to the gym since then, I’ve hardly eaten a vegetable since then and I’ve eaten the WORST foods I could possibly indulge in!! It’s all because I’m lazy.

I’ve also been to lazy to weigh myself which means I’ve been decidedly bad and not posted anything on here either. BAD SARAH! It’s okay you can chastise me, I deserve it. Boy oh boy do I deserve it. I need a slap on the wrist and a punch in the face I’ve been so bad. I even ate a two scoop waffle cone from Baskin-Robbins last night… It was soooo good, but I also knew it was soooo wrong! Yet, it still doesn’t stop me from wanting to go and buy a takeaway tub right now so I can eat eat eat eat eat. VERY BAD!

Anyway, I’m hoping to get back on the bandwagon of the diet and lifestyle change soon, if not immediately. Which reminds me it’s lunchtime now….

But Wait! I hear you cry. Your last weight on here was 116kg, so that’s 2.5kg, not 1.5kg. Ahh yes. Well I weighed myself on Sunday last week before we left, and apparently, going to the gym everyday (almost) and sticking to my diet relatively well, forced me to gain 1kg. So before I left I was up to 117kg. Which sucked, but I hoping that it was a little bit of muscle gain, and a little bit of the over-zealous dinners out that I enjoyed before we left. So it’s all okay, I understand where it’s all coming from, and I know the reasons behind it all.

To make matters worse, I’m finding it a little hard to go cold turkey back onto the diet, because the house is littered with the remains of our flight home, some speculaaas (delish Dutch/German cookies), some Jelly Belly’s, Mini Oreo’s, and the list goes on. Which means I’ve been snacking on these this morning rather than moving to eating a little better and getting back on the diet. Then to top it off even more, I don’t have a car today (my Dad was caring for it while we were away), so I won’t be going to the gym now until Thursday (I’m working on Tuesday and Wednesday 7am – 7.30pm). So there’s no chance that I’ll be able to start working off this excess weight yet. Boo! Then add the fact that I’m still eating naughty foods… DISASTER!

I’m hopeful that when I’ve finished the few little snacks that are still hanging around the house, I’ll be okay to get back in to eating properly. I know that I can easily make my lunch for the next two days, and I know that I don’t have any cash, so I won’t be making impromptu purchases at work (like chocolate or chips from the vending machine). So, hopefully in the next day or so I’ll be back on the bandwagon.

So, now that I am on this whole low calorie, reduced carb, high fruit/veg, no junk food health kick to lose all my weight, I find it hard to hang out with any of my friends in a food eating situation. Like take Wednesday just gone, I invited my two bestest thin-ish friends over. One has just had a baby, (who is so damn cute!) and the other is in a comfortable relationship where she’s gained about 7kg, and is right now trying to kick the flab, struggling but trying her best. So I invited them over for about 1pm, which for me meant lunch-ish foods. But then my car wouldn’t start because it ran out of petrol. I had all these great intentions of going to buy some rolls and some chicken and some salad and presenting them with some chicken and salad sandwiches. It didn’t happen.

I had to call out the RAC (Road-side assistance) man to help me out. He took 1 hour . So out the window that idea went, 20 minutes before they were due to arrive I rushed to the shops to buy some healthy snack foods…. This turned into shortbread (with jam, with lemon spread and chocolate covered) and some orange and poppyseed mini-muffins. Bad food. Probably not as bad as some of the foods I could have selected (like fairy cupcakes for example, they tempted me, or TimTams… too delicious!) but still not good.

So anyway, my friends came over, and they ate a couple of biscuits and a muffin or two. Leaving me with about 10 biscuits and 3 muffins after they left. I’m pretty sure they didn’t go nuts on the food because I only ate 1 biscuit and 1 mini-muffin. But when they left… I was left staring at this plate FULL of yummy irresistible foods.

And I ate them. Every last piece. Every biscuit. Every muffin. Every thing.

Moral of the story: Next time fill up your fuel tank Sarah.

Then there’s today. Today is my husbands birthday, which involves a HUGE dinner, cooked by me, with Pavlova for dessert (he doesn’t like cake or cheesecake or anything, but LOVES pavlova!). So it means a big meal and dessert, because I don’t think my hubby would tolerate me not having birthday cake on his ACTUAL birthday… Wish me luck kids!

I feel like I’m finally understanding that. I can’t believe that it’s taken me so long to figure it out though. I’m doing well so far, I’m keeping up without a lot of sugary junky foods. I’ve been eating porridge/apples/yoghurt for breakfast, a sandwich for lunch and a well balances meat and veg dinner. It’s hard work, soooooooo hard.

Anyone have any motivational ideas?

Tomorrow is weigh day and I’m hoping that I will have lost 2kg more. Wish me luck?

During my last heath kick, I was restricted to about 2 standard drinks twice a week. I manage that just fine, because really I don’t drink very much anyway. This time round I seem to be frequently having a drink at dinner time. Which is fine. Right now I’m drinking a berry flavoured cider, delish! So yummy! But loaded with sugar and carbs I’ll bet.

Thoughts? Should I avoid it all together or just cut down to a couple of standard drinks twice a week?

Sooo… let’s tell you about what the last few days have been like I guess then. I’ve been a little naughty, as you can tell from my last posts, I’m into scones at the moment. I’ve eaten THREE(!) in the last week, both with raspberry jam and cream), plus I caved and ate the chocolate bar I was hording for today. I ate it on Sunday afternoon after waking from a night shift, about to go onto the next one. I was soooo weak! But the good thing is that I didn’t let that spoil the whole day/night. I did relatively well from then on. Except last night where I ate a 1/2 slab of Pizza at The Royal, in East Perth. Delicious it was, but greasy and cheesy and very bad for me it was also.

The lesson from that I can take away from the pizza is not to go out hungry. I hadn’t eaten dinner, I had thought I would be eating something out with friends at the restaurant at The Royal, but it became quickly apparent that we were just there for the trivia night (super hard BTW, SUPER HARD!), so I decided to get some ‘bar food’. Silly silly silly idea. I shared it, but that meant that my two skinny mini friends ate one piece each (they’d had dinner already, smart ladies), and the male friend who attended got his own, because he loved it so much he had to eat a whole one. So I ended up eating 6 pieces. Now it’s not as bad as you think, it was a rectangle pizza, and the pieces were relatively small. But still it was bad of me to eat pizza, with no veggies (it had mushroom and olives but I think in this scenario it didn’t count). Oh well. Lesson Learned.

Anyway, the chocolate, I wanted to get on and blog about it, as soon as I ate it, but I can’t remember why I didn’t. I just know I didn’t. I was feeling tired and blah and at those points I usually eat something sugary. Nary a night shift goes by that I don’t visit the vending machine outside the unit… I digress. So it was a Cadbury Twisted bar. A 40g bar made the same as their Creme Eggs. Delicious. WRONG! It wasn’t delicious at all. It was terrible. I didn’t like it at all. I could have wasted my first chocolate bar on something way better, like a CRUNCHIE!

Perhaps this means I’m growing out of eating sweets if I’m starting to dislike the ones I used to love?

It’s winter and everywhere you go for coffee is offering ‘warm scones with cream and jam’…. yum! I’m so totally there. Today for the first time since my friend’s baby shower in April, I had scones. They were delicious let me tell you, but I had to debate with myself whether or not I should eat them. Should I eat them? How many calories are they worth? Are they as bad as a piece of chocolate cake, and if so, why not eat the cake?

So to answer all my questions (post-eating of course!) I’ve decided to blog about scones. Wikipedia tells me that a scone is a type of British quick-bread. Often they are made with wheat, barley or oatmeal, and that they are a big part of high tea or devonshire tea. I love going to high tea, there are plenty of places around Perth that offer high tea, like the Novotel Vines Resort; Salt in Cottesloe; The Duxton Hotel; and a myriad of cafe’s that are around. All of them have been delicious. I never go for the tea, just all the mini sandwiches, cakes, petite fours and of course, the scones.

Anyway, so to answer my questions;

1. Should I eat scones whilst trying to lose weight? & How many calories is it worth?
   One scone contains 230 – 320 calories, add in the cream @ 70 – 90 calories, then the jam (I had raspberry, because I’m weirdly allergic to strawberries) @ 20 – 30 calories. Making it cost me 320 – 440 calories. Really not very much particularly. So yes, I can eat the scone, as a snack but not very often.
2. Are they as bad as a piece of Chocolate Cake? If so, why not eat the cake?
   One slice of Chocolate cake is worth about 600 calories. So that’s why I shouldn’t eat the chocolate cake over the scone.

What do you think? Scone or Cake?

I’m quite glad that it was something good, but not junk food. The stew was delicious! It was relatively low in the calorie, fat, sugar count too. So hopefully that means I am not going to put any weight on from it. Perhaps I might even throw it up. Which is totally gross and not the way I want to lose weight, but right now, whilst I am writing this, I feel super duper nauseated. Blergh!

Anyway, so I’m still doing well. So far this week I’v done 3 hours exercise, I’ve got another 2 happening tomorrow and then another 2 on Friday as well. So that’s all good.